Well it’s holy week. I’ve written and read daily devotions. I’ve fasted and prayed earnestly Mondays and Fridays. I have discovered some personal failings that have clouded my relationships with God and others. I have read the Gospel of Mark as the pastor challenged us.

At the same time, I have failed at Lent. Wednesdays and Fridays?! Sure but Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays, I only thought of myself. How little I sacrifice. How quickly my mind wanders. How often I chase my desires instead of God’s. Who am I kidding? I’m no disciple. I’m not disciplined. I am a half hearted, half witted, follower of Christ! Once again, I’m disappointed with Lent.

I guess I relate to Peter who gave such bold promises! Or James and John who thought they could drink Jesus’ cup. Or the rich young man who boasted in his ability to do the Law and went away humiliated. 

We all stand at the end of Lent, watching from afar. Jesus alone climbing Golgatha. Jesus alone being crucified. Jesus alone doing Lent, serving God and humanity, praying, doing devotions, fasting, serving, dying. 

Lent is not a time for rising to the challenge. It’s a time for failing spectacularly and arriving at the 40th day with nothing, only to hear Jesus say, “It is finished!” 

Easter isn’t for people who properly and perfectly did Lent. It’s for people who failed at it, who struggle in their self discipline, who fall down more than they get up, for you and me! Easter reminds us that Jesus is the hero of our story, not us, thank God!